There was a time in my life when I thought no one loved or cared about me and my thoughts were often about pain and suicide . My reality was really warped but it was my reality and the feeling of loneliness was so painfully real. I've come a long way since then and every day I am amazed at the OVERWHELMING outpouring of love and support I have in my life... a life in which I thought was worthless and would be off not lived.
I have always tried to be the giver in all my relationships and in life in general. Asking for help for our adoption has been very humbling and difficult (which I know is hard to believe as much as I'm on here fundraising but it's true... I HATE it). While it's been hard to ask for help I've had people reach out and support us because at some point I helped them, and that is special to me. Even more humbling and touching are the people that have come out to support and help that I haven't seen in years.... or people I barely know.... or people who have little to give but give all they can. Most of them don't want to be recognized but they know who they are and I want them to know how very much it means to me. What may seem like a small gift of time or donations is worth more than I can express. You are helping bring my kids home to a family they have longed for their entire life.
It's definitely crazy going from feeling like no one likes you or wants you to
knowing that many people love and accept you and more than that, they
believe in you and your dreams. I wish I could help transform every
orphaned heart into being able to feel that change.
No child should be without a family and while my heart aches daily for the orphans of the world, the pain I feel being separated from my kids is almost too much to bear some days.
Thank you to everyone who has helped us. Seems so insignificant to just say Thank You but know it's such a deep, sincere, heartfelt, tear-filled eyes, THANK YOU!
I made my first trip to Haiti in 1998. Fell in love with my first orphan in 2000. Started a non-profit to help Haiti in 2003 and started taking teams down on short-term mission trips soon after. I fell in love with Wanna and Fritzon (and a lot of others in the same orphanage) in March of 2010 and had to wait over 2 years to start the adoption process due to the laws of Haiti and a process that is always changing. Our documents were finally submitted and accepted in the fall of 2012 and are currently moving through the court system. We are quickly (hopefully) approaching the end of our adoption. This is my blog to talk about all things related to our adoption and any thing else I think is relevant to it. Enjoy!